Wait for you......

The warm breeze that blew that day,

Marked the day you went away,

You could see the tears in my eyes,

As we were forced to say goodbye....

Although the distance is temporary,

Can't deny the pain of solitary,

You hugged me close and whispered in my ear,

Promise me babe, you'll wait for me here....

And in a wink, you disappeared,

Leaving me alone here..

I will wait for you baby,

As long as you need me to,

I'll keep this promise I hold baby,

Until you pull through,

No matter how long it takes,

No matter how high the stakes,

I will wait for you baby,

As long as you remain true...

Sometimes I wonder......

Sometimes I wonder,

What is it that you are searching for,

Am I not good enough,

That you choose to ignore,

Does all the riches in the world mean so much to you,

Than having me by your side loving you?

Money, power and wealth will definitely come,

But if you have all and is alone would it be fun?

Life is too short to be wasted away,

Is your ego too big to even ask me to stay?

Perhaps its not me that you dream in your sleep at night,

The silent spell you cast makes it seem right.

Although I am superwoman,

I will never be a man,

The silence you pledge is not one that I can understand,

To the point I'd rather hear you utter harsh words,

Or whatever method so that you can be heard,

But you chose the silence that cuts through worst than any knife,

Might as well you take my life,

Because have you ever stop to think that the silence has an ability to kill,

The strong love we had, that I crave still.

Perhaps what I want and what you want are two different things,

And perhaps we do not even share the same feelings,

But how on earth will I ever know,

If keeping quiet is what you show.

Would you be selfish enough to lead me on,

And at the end of the day, move on.

With tears in my eyes I pray that it is not true,

For happiness is what I feel when loving you,

Except for the silence, everything else is in place,

Such wonderful love all gone to waste,

But seriously darling, would you submit to your ego,

Of keeping quiet until I choose to go,

If I chose that road, there will be no return,

No regrets, no shame, and love all burnt.

Between Love, Wealth and Power........

Its been awhile since I've actually written in my personal blog. Not at all due to the lack of interest in writing, but rather the lack of time and the need to be more discreet. When you are at the helm of a big idea, despite your good intentions, you need to be wary about things that may shoot you down. I have a few snipers waiting in the dark to get me at the right moment.

Being me is possibly one of the most hectic jobs around, although many friends express their jealousy of the flexibility of my time and work. Yeah, but then I work all the time, other people get to clock out at 5.The earnings are good as long as I am willing to pour in the extra effort, and mind you, most of it is your own effort.

Which is why my time is highly valuable. Time is money. And in the line of what I am doing, network is of utmost importance. Hence you could imagine the stress I am going through when I lost my Iphone. Luckily I have a back-up of my contacts and applications in my macbook but it still leaves me to have to buy another phone. Wish it was that simple.

But despite all the chaos going around in my world, I know it doesn't bother me that much since its always been chaos. Just needs a little more effort to get it to the point I want it to. What bothers me is whether am I making the right decisions for my own personal life. Unfortunately, only God knows.

Being an alpha female is never easy. Especially when you have empathy on board. Despite telling myself I will not make any excuses for a guy, I find myself spiraling down the same tunnel. Its not exactly healthy to the mind. It bears worst for the heart. And I keep asking myself day by day why do I let myself be hurt by my beau's complete ignorance of me.

Young men are so naive. They believe that they have to act so macho in front of a woman so that they don't lose their manhood. It is completely bullshit. A real man has the capability to tackle his surroundings and at the same time keep the woman that he loves happy. There is a misconception on what makes a woman happy. For younger women, material items makes them feel happy but its temporary. As you mature, (and have the capability to buy your own goodies and diamonds) all these material items are not so important anymore. What is more important is the attention. No point having a beau if he is not concerned about your daily happenings.

A lot of guys ask me this, why do they need to text the girlfriend everyday, and that they like their privacy. I simply answered, a relationship involves 2 people. Therefore, you can't just think about what you like, but what the other would prefer. If you go around doing only what you like with disregard of what the other person feels or wants, then definitely the other person is sacrificing his/her own comfort to compensate yours. In time, this will lead to more dissatisfaction and cause the relationship to wilt and break. Besides, smses cost 10 cents. Men spend more on cigarettes. And it'll save you the hassle of having to fight with your girl daily. Girls just want attention, if you don't give them any, they'd feel unappreciated.

The best part is, the moment they hit 35-40, they become more fatherly and concerned, so young stuffs get excessive attention. Which is why I won't tolerate this sort of treatment. I've been married before, I know exactly how I want the relationship to be. Having a communication breakdown is probably bliss for the man, but hey, I'm just human. If I feel unwanted I'll just walk. No more sacrificing for people who do not appreciate it.