Its been a really hectic week and a stressful month. Sales are low and I have to keep myself up and running to keep up with all the workload I am facing. A lot of events have occurred, good ones and bad ones, as good as receiving a new family member to the loss of others. With the recent tsunami in Japan, my worries is to my beau who is stationed in a port in China, ripples from the quake is felt all the way to Sabah which makes me more concerned. At least he's still okay. Busy as usual and only concerned about his work at this moment. I pray to God he remains safe.
Having both my girls for this school holiday is one of the most tiring phase I have to go through. But I promised myself before, Mom first, CEO second - so the needs of my girls will be my priority. And I can understand their dilemma. Having a new baby into the family which does not share the exact gene trademark as they do is pretty stressful, especially if the parent involved does not take the time to talk to them and explain what is going on.
It is unfortunate that my children have to grow up in two separate cultures. My ex as typical as the surrounding, and my culture which is completely different. But I didn't spend years in pediatrics to not learn to understand how the mind of a child works and I can sense the frustration of my eldest daughter, and its not easy for her to let it out. It is difficult being a mum and a doctor as well, and having to control my emotions at the same time. Honestly there are times I feel like I want to beat the sense into that idiot for his selfishness. Be a father idiot - not an asshole. With the arrival of your new son, perhaps it is the best take that my eldest angel be returned to me so that I can sort out her life. I may not be perfect, but I know that my actions are for the best interest on my children and not purely for myself.
I have decided to take my little girl back and despite all the events and commotion going on, and the lack of funds and other things that worry my head, I believe God will back me up and help me. I will survive and be successful. Deep inside I know it.
Having both my girls for this school holiday is one of the most tiring phase I have to go through. But I promised myself before, Mom first, CEO second - so the needs of my girls will be my priority. And I can understand their dilemma. Having a new baby into the family which does not share the exact gene trademark as they do is pretty stressful, especially if the parent involved does not take the time to talk to them and explain what is going on.
It is unfortunate that my children have to grow up in two separate cultures. My ex as typical as the surrounding, and my culture which is completely different. But I didn't spend years in pediatrics to not learn to understand how the mind of a child works and I can sense the frustration of my eldest daughter, and its not easy for her to let it out. It is difficult being a mum and a doctor as well, and having to control my emotions at the same time. Honestly there are times I feel like I want to beat the sense into that idiot for his selfishness. Be a father idiot - not an asshole. With the arrival of your new son, perhaps it is the best take that my eldest angel be returned to me so that I can sort out her life. I may not be perfect, but I know that my actions are for the best interest on my children and not purely for myself.
I have decided to take my little girl back and despite all the events and commotion going on, and the lack of funds and other things that worry my head, I believe God will back me up and help me. I will survive and be successful. Deep inside I know it.
